I feel positive today

Today I saw an ad campaign to spread awareness to those idiots who say "that's so gay"

woo! about time how did that stupid sentence even get spread in the first place?
My old friend said "thats so gay" at least a hundred times a day. I guess that's why i wasn't too surprised when he socked me after I came out to him.

now I'm feeling positive also because things lately have ben working in my favor.
Ever since I listened to John Lennons Imagine on Sunday.
I've been feeling peaceful and things in my life are coming at me in remarkable coinsidences.

I was thinking about transgendered people and wanted my family to be educated more about them.
Today my mom noticed she had a transgender in her myspace buddies.
She was freaked out and it pissed me off but i got a chance to inform her for the better of understanding.
After all her cousin actualy is a transgender.

Another thing that happened was my sister actually wrote a story about the song imagine.
a world with no heaven hell god or religion.

She didn't even know i was obsessing over that song this week.
It made me feel good and I believe I still have a connection with the world.
No matter how negative things are all i have to do is relax and maybe just maybe I can find a wavelength to operate on at a higher level of consiousness.

Maybe we do have a part of us that needs to be woken up or reminded.

I've been feeling very different lately.

Homosexuality and homophobia

I can not fucking stand it when someone says being gay is a choice.

Who the fuck are they to tell me that I chose this? First of all they don't know a God damned thing about me and other gays bi's lesbians or transgendered people.
And they sure as shit don't know what each of us has gone through in life.

So to all you "oh it's a choice and i don't agree with it" assholes you NEED to shut your fucking mouth because you just don't fucking know what it's like.


Being gay is the same as anything else you like.

EXAMPLE: you like a band you didn't choose to like the band but the music struck something in you. Some may not like that band and you cant make them.

Did I dumb it down enough for you homophobes?


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Now for you people that say I'm going to hell If I don't accept God and turn magically straight.



what happened to free will?
I thought free will was a gift why does god care so much about who we love?
His judgments are meaningless really who is he trying to impress? why does it matter?

It's my free will I'll do what I want with it.

If someone gave you blender as a gift but punched you in the face every time you used it wouldn't you think that person is a dick?

So if YOUR God really does send people to and eternity of burning painful torture for loving the same sex.......then HE"S A FUCKING ASSHOLE!

new noises for my ears

Well I of course took advantage of the leaked Marilyn Manson songs from his new album The High End of Low.

Arma-Goddamn-Motherfucking-Geddon.
and The wow.

Unlike a lot of people I'm loving these new songs and I'm happy to know Marilyns not afraid to be creative and actually change his sound.

I'd also like to take this time to mention how shitty I think heavy metal has become the past 5 years.

I'm fucking sick and tired of bands that constantly roar like the devil shitting a billion pine cones.
That kind of vocal disharmony is no longer hardcore or unique.
Hatebreed Lamb of God and a ton others all sound the same.

I was watching Headbangers ball And i felt just as dumb as i would have felt watching 50 cent.
There was no real creativity no art just embarrassment.

why cheez-its suck squirell nuts

Have you noticed there is nothing to drink that tastes good while snacking on these awful mouth drying vomit crackers?
And they clump up and get stuck in your teeth or on your gums.

I want doritos god damnit!


That is all for now, Oh i also got more mt dew so yay!
Now go away.

almost one am

I'm out of mt dew...............blah

st patricks day

I know it's a bit late but st pats was my last eventful day.

That day I went to meet an old friend at the park down my street, It was awkward for a while since I hadnt seen him in months.

I watched him spray paint things in broad day light about 50 yards away from a police station.
I broke the ice by saying he should paint a nice big ham with a police hat on top on the hood of a cop car.
And that actually cracked him up and we had one of our good old laughing fits just like old times. It felt really good.

An hour later we were back at his new flop house not really doing anything so we walked around the block and he tagged several more things while I looked at his sketch book, He's an amazing self taught artist.

He asked me to go to a party to get shitfaced with him but i declined because I was sick and had already thrown up three times with one dry heave.
He understood and we smoked a little pot, I had to use my shirt collar as a screen to not spread my germs.

I went home 2 hours later bummed out cause it was my third st pats day in a row sober and I really wanted some green beer.

random thought

I keep an open mind, But it will snap shut and rip apart ideas I don't like.

Maybe that isn't really a completely open mindset, but we all have something we dislike. In any case I know enough about the things I dislike.....that's why I dislike them.

There's a difference between dislike justified by bullshit and ignorance then dislike justified by fact and intelligence.

Or of course maybe you dislike a food cause of the taste, but I'm not talking about that kind of dislike.